Oceans or Arachnids?

Is it me or is it him that you really want to love?

I am not going to confront you or ask you about this because I dont want to tell you what I seemed to have discovered.
To be quite honest, I feel very hurt and almost fooled by what might be true.
After seeing how you are to him, I don't even know if I come close.

I really wish that you could show me that you meant it when you told me you love me.
If you gave me any security at all, I would know that feeling like this is unnecessary.

There is a war going inside of me between my heart and my mind because of all of this.

I know you are going to read this and it will probably just frustrate you even more with me.
So if you want to talk to me about it, please do.

If not, I will know the answer.