Due to my large mouth, I told you about me writing in this and that you would be included.
So there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that you will read this, not to mention our conversation about telling the truth. I have a ton to say, so this will require ample amounts of reading. Here it goes!
You were one of the main reasons I wanted to come home so badly. There is so much unfinished business between you and I that I need to work on. I knew after seeing you, I would want to stay here for good. Well I was right!
Its very hard for me to put into words how I feel about you. When you are on my mind, I have a million different thoughts and feelings coming at me and I just don't know how to get them all out.
I suppose I will start with how beautiful I think you are. I love the way you are able to show who you truly are through what you wear. You would have fit in very well growing up in the 1970's and I am so into that, although I am glad you exist now:)- very selfish, I know.
If I could paint a picture of the perfect person for me, I think you would be it.
Enough said on that subject for now, lets go a little bit deeper.
You as a person...where do I even begin?
Ever since I was aware of your existence, I was always intrigued. I needed to know who this girl was and how her mind worked. Eventually, we became acquainted and rather close pretty quickly. All of have to say is "Summer 2006" and you'll know what I mean. I think that was the first moment where I felt something that strong with someone. I haven't had that feeling since!
I really didn't know how to go about the whole situation. I was afraid to become vulnerable and have the chance of getting really hurt. So I slowly pushed you away, while really wanting to have you be closer to me. I have tried plenty of times to shake it off and keep going with life but I have realized that a feeling like this doesn't come my way very often. I needed to do my best to figure out how it worked, and what I could make of it. I am currently still in the process of doing so! You make me very comfortable, which allows me to be myself. Despite your very facetious and failing antics, I know that you feel like letting loose with me. I can admit that I do not have you figured out, but I can sense what really goes on inside your head. So PLEASE, become more open about this with me. You have the potential to be something far beyond anything I have ever experienced before. Its my constant initiative to crack that shell of yours open, so you can be who you really are.
I have a lot more to say to you, so lets talk about it. It would mean more than the world AND the moon to me.
"If I know what love is, it is because of you."
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